And I've actually made progress! (Do I hear any gasps?!)
My best friend, for the sake of cybersake, let's call him Juan. I have known Juan since last March. He goes to Millersville and he's one of the greatest friends I've ever had. He teaches me so much and he's a bright spot in my life. Naturally, because of his great personality, I have developed a
Fast forward to this semester. He has a girlfriend-they've been together since the summer. She transferred to Millersville this semester. It's his last one before he graduates. Of course I'd love to have him all to myself this semester but no-his girlfriend (let's call her KiKi) is here, occupying lots of time.
(I'm sure you're saying-well jeez, she still sounds bitter and jealous. So much for a resolution). But you'd be wrong. Because this past Saturday, I took KiKi to a women's retreat that I attend monthly. I picked her up, sat with her, and then drove her back.
And I enjoyed it. I told God that I'd turn my negative thoughts for her away for the day. And I did. I prayed for her and Juan and made it a point to show love even when it was hard.
I think it'll still be tough, but hey-progress is progress no matter how small.
Keep on keeping on!
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I'm proud of you. I've found myself to have some jealous tendencies as well. They've been acting up in my life lately. If you ever want to e-mail/process any of your thoughts, I'm a listening ear going though some (potentially) similar things.
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